my mind is an impenetrable fortress with impermeable walls surrounding it.
break through..

inconsistent:
not in agreement, harmony, or accord; incompatible acts inconsistent with belief
not uniform; self-contradictory inconsistent testimony
not always holding to the same principles or practice; changeable

I am surrounded by unavoidable inconsistency,
I just hope it won't be my downfall.

i really should disconnect my facebook from my hotmail

You have 1558 new emails!

write a book
send a letter
fall in love
four letter words
are all i have

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I read somewhere... how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong... but to feel strong.

the hair stands on my neck
my eyes out of focus
you have so much control
yet none at all

dear lord

last time i ever take cough medicine

it's time to end it all

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I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place.

alive out of habit

think of me as days pass us by

astronomy

everyone should make a mental note:

when traveling over the open ocean in the middle of the night
when the sky is a thick blanket of black and uncertainty
when the ocean is dark and unknowing
look out the window
and soak in the beauty

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There are no shortcuts to any place worth going.

eeeeeeeee!

thoughts thoughts thoughts
you get the best of meeeeeeeee
goodbye canada, hello hawaii

For what is said but never heard. We change the world by just a word. Be impeccable with your word and watch something grow.

of everything

can uncertainty lead to misinterpretation? have i been leading myself down a narrow passage of defeat this whole time, or am i willing to face the inevitable truth.

ignoring the extremely scandalous picture, one of my friends made this and said i look like Megan Fox.

holy shit self esteem boost.

appreciation

an emotional/mental/physical vacation is much needed.
tropical paradise, here i comeeeee

sitting
reading
smoking
thinking
sitting
thinking
reading
smoking

self betterment is so easy to say
so much harder to undergo

hehehehehiexpectsomuchoutofthingsthataresolittlehehehe

the little hope i had left in my heart was officially deflated

can there be an explanation to everything

or does everything happen by coincidence.

can everything be put into one category?

be yourself

or be yourself with someone else

choose now

help i'm alive

i don't know if i'm writing this for you or for myself anymore

everything that went through my head was once yours

and now is mine own

but i don't know me

and i don't know if i'm ever going to know myself

only because i don't let myself get too close

but when you're stuck in your own head

there's not much to look forward too

i am so disappointed in myself yet i cannot find any more impacting/detremental words to write down this immense disappointment. i have changed.

missing class just to sit and stare into something that made a little more sense than my current situation certainly didn't help. looking at walls felt more comforting than looking broken. looking out windows made me feel a little less cold than the weather outside. i thought bullshitting my way through school would make everything easier but it has led to the my ultimate demise. i am even more afraid of the future and even more unsettled about my current surroundings.

i was meant to travel water,
i was meant to travel sun,
thus far, i've done none.

how does every single word that goes through your head have such a huge impact on me.
if my words could do that to you, baby i'd be satisfied.

tell me am i right to thing that there could be nothing better


i want to sing for days and never stop and never stop and never stop
i miss singing all the time

around around goes the carousel

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this is working out so perfectly

Truth: like a blanket that always leaves your feet cold. You push it, stretch it, it'll never be enough. You kick at it, beat it, it'll never cover any of us. From the moment we enter crying to the moment we leave dying it will just cover your face as you wail and cry and scream.

DO WHAT YOU FEEL NOW

standing there with nothing on
she's gonna teach me how to swim

i'm:

i'm a little break. i'm places you'll never go. i'm people you'll never meet. i'm eye contact you'll never make. i'm your smoky breath on a cool night. i'm the impossible accomplished. i'm the change in your pocket. i'm the hair in your eyes. i'm the beauty in everything you see every day. i'm clever lines you never said. i'm good advice you never took. i'm the best lie you've ever heard.

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Happiness comes in many forms.
Last night it came in you.