Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out

I wish I knew.

I feel like I'm a bad person. I'm a bad person for breaking up with the "perfect guy". I'm a bad person for skipping school. I'm a bad person for lying, for not caring, and for making excuses. The more things I make excuses for the shittier I feel. Yet I don't have the motivation to stop or better myself. I am doing all of the things I said I didn't want to do. Self improvement list: stop smoking, stop making excuses, start caring. Self betterment is so much easier said than done.