out of thought

out of sight

out of mind

silently shivering

i want to find something that is worth the pain,

that is worth the regret,

that is worth the emotions,

that is worth the destruction. 

something that will help me feel whole again.

i am a nerd

i am excited for physics

i love my step family

I thought living with them would be worse. I feel as if I have a home more than I did before. 

anxiety anxiety go away come again another day..

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Sometimes I'm afraid of what you might tell me. Sometimes I'm afraid that you'll tell me that this is not a work of fiction. I can only hope that the answers will come to me in my sleep. I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to.

i wrote this a while ago

i want to go to bed with a clear head and never worry about the hours of sleep i won't get

Hawaii in two weeks!!

i just wanted to be your number one

I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up it brought up the past
Once you know you can never go back

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i just need some reassurance that i'm not wasting my time.

you will never stop it now

i couldn't be happier that this semester is over!
social probably destroyed my average blah

i really need to stop biting my nails

if i could only write down my actual feelings onto my facebook status.

Jodie is:
lonely?
in too deep?
not good enough?
cares too much
doesn't care enough

finding that out tonight made me realize just how oblivious i am to my feelings.
or maybe i was just oblivious to the whole situation i found myself caught up in.

i always let myself get too close

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i am so sick of your mixed signals

time and cause and time

i don't want to think that time spent was time wasted. or the time that was wasted did not bring meaning to anything. i am so sick of feeling unsettled about everything. was i stupid to think this was going to be easy?

well let's agree to disagree

it sucks hearing rumors about you, too

today today

it is 4:29 in the morning
i had a thouroughly satisfying/productive day
i read my whole national geographic,
and i even got to eat sushi.. =)

smoking is starting to catch up with me

but i really hope we win this tournament!