One fine day in the middle of the night, two dead boys got up to fight. Back to back they faced each other, drew their swords and shot each other. A deaf policeman heard the noise, got up and shot those two dead boys. If you don’t believe this lie, it's true, go ask the blind man, he saw it too.

fucking assholes

i hate people who write shit about things or people they don't even know!

Teenage girls in hospital after crash on Macleod Trail

How much you wanna bet friends will paint the teen driver as a "hero" for trying to avoid rear-ending the cars. If she hadn't been speeding ... oh ... and DRINKING beforehand, then she wouldn't be in the hospital, would she?
Ridiculous.

ALBERTA - ctvcalgary - A 16-year-old girl, who was a passenger in a Pontiac Grand Am driven by another 16-year-old girl, is in critical condition following a serious crash on Macleod Trail.

The crash happened around 9 p.m. Friday at the intersection of Macleod Trail and 71st Street SE.

Police say it appears the car was trying to avoid rear-ending vehicles stopped at a red light when it lost control and crossed the centre cement median ending up in the southbound lanes. A southbound Dodge Durango driven by a 34-year-old man struck the car's front passenger door.

Both girls were trapped in the car and had to be cut from the wreckage by firefighters with the Jaws of Life. Fire crews removed three of the four doors from the car and cut away the roof. Both girls were out in approximately 10 minutes.

The 16-year-old passenger of the car was taken to hospital with critical life-threatening injuries. The 16-year-old driver of the car was also taken to hospital with less severe injuries. No one in the Durango was hurt.

Police are still investigating but say speed and alcohol may be factors in this collision.

one of us had to disappear
i'm just sorry it had to be me

fuck you immunity system why do you suck so much dick
!!!!RI@!#@($@#*%(@#)!*%()!#(

for once

i am me
without you

i have come to realize that every guy who talks to me:

a) is intoxicated or under the influence of mind-altering substances.
b) wants a booty call/hook up.
c) wants to kill me because i broke up with chris.
d) is absolutely insane.

i just feel so abused/unwanted/wanted/used

So I feel a little ridiculous writing this seeing as how I was so opposed to Twilight in the first place, but I ended up watching it last night and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I think it was more the love story in the whole movie which enticed me. I want to fall in that awkward, lusty, heavy love.

post secret vomit

jodie caroline cooke
this i know is true

i know i'm still in your head

i just need to know the answer to the one question that's been burning inside of me

i sat in your car and tried to feel emotion. two ruined people. two ruined minds. two ruined hearts. can emotions be spit up thrown out given up or thrown down.

i feel I must interject here, you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
with these revisions and gaps in history
so let me help you remember.
i've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
i've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave

for problems with easy solutions...

nerdiest comparison ever

will everything be a reoccurring cycle resulting in different products and emotions?
i feel like i'm trapped in a cellular respiration reaction.

i start out whole and get broken down slowly..

try to scrape it off the thought of skin against skin
move it from the front to back and start it go again

EVERYTHING SHALL BE KNOWN
cross paths, destroy paths, be afraid of certain paths, ignore other paths, find paths, follow paths, lead paths, curious paths, mysterious paths, untouched paths, paths visited often, narrow paths, large paths, short paths, long paths, twisted paths, flat paths, curvy paths, bumpy paths, horrible paths, smooth paths, rough paths, messy paths, clean paths, paths that are torn apart, entangled paths, tidy paths, weird paths, creepy paths, ruined paths, dead end paths.

it's not so much the fact you're hanging out with him. it's the fact that in every single way possible, you have made me realize how easily replaceable and unimportant to you i really am. i promised myself i would never let any boy or person come in the way of this friendship, and i've held my part strong. but for you i don't want this to be a different case. this was once a matter of my life and now it seems almost minuscule.

and that you'd killed the better part of me
if you could just milk it for everything
i've said what I'd said and you know what I mean
but I still can't focus on anything
we kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves

AM I THE ONLY ONE OUT THERE?

this loneliness is getting unbearable

the only way i've been finding my way is through familiarity,
nothing i don't recognize isn't worth my time.
yet this is something that i've been missing this whole time..
change

we're humming birds who've lost the plot and we will not lose

i'm not sorry i met you
i'm not sorry it's over
i'm not sorry there's nothing to save.

live through this and you won't look back.

pointless but ANNOYING v.2

okay i'm really starting to get pissed off at the absence of my cheese grater.
seriously, this is not amusing.

for the first time in months i'm tired at 11:26 pm.

i'm actually falling asleep as i type this.

EXCITEMENT!!

oh my god i want to go to sasquatch music fest soooooooooo bad!

to you

i was just one of those girls

why can't i be normal.
why can't i just go to school talk with my friends have a good time come home do my homework be productive and finish all that is needed to be done.

i think i make things more difficult. or maybe i'm just difficult to be around.

my homework lays sprawled out in a messy neglected pile that consumes the furthest point in the back of my mind while i sit and stare out into the freezing weather feeling the cold creep up my spine. is it all intertwined?

nothing should be this hard. i wish everything didn't depend on this stupid chemical imbalance existing within me.

i'm in a ranting mood. has today been like every other day? does everyone live so goddamn far away from reality? i think i'm insane. i'm probably the one furthest from reality at this point.

my reality is waking up to feel no joy. but why? is it my procrastination, the lack of effort i put forth, my loneliness, my easily deceived mind?

if somehow something or someone could answer all of these questions for me, instead of me having to try to decipher these puzzles twisting my mind, then please just come soon.

i don't want to feel guilty for not having mutual feelings.

i don't want to feel guilty for not wanting to go to graduation with you.

and i certainly don't want to feel guilty for saying no to dinner.

so why do i feel guilty?

Feeling like Katrina with no fema
Like Martin with no Gina
Like a flight with no visa, first class with the seat back I still see ya

As I recall, I know you love to show off
But I never thought that you would take it this far
What do I know?

I AM IN YOUR HEAD YOUR HEAD YOUR HEAD MINE

what you need

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i'm going to get help

i'm not alone anymore

pointless but ANNOYING

so when living in a house of seven people, naturally you would expect things to be misplaced or go missing. generally nothing really does... except for the cheese grater. you see the funny thing is, is that all seven of us think the cheese grater belongs in seven different spots around the kitchen so when the dishwasher is clean it is usually placed among the 10 or so cabinets. usually you can get lucky when you try the first three cupboards but after a while of searching i end up saying FUCK IT and give up. i lose all motivation for the grated cheese i once desired and distract myself with something else. dear lord i am just going to have to purchase my own cheese grater and chain it to a wall.

crooked teeth

Cause at night the sun in retreat,
Made the skyline look like crooked teeth,
In the mouth of a man who was devouring, us both.

You're so cute when you're slurring your speech,
But they're closing the bar and they want us to leave.

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my post secret was posted this week.
thanks Frank.

sickened by the very thought. frightened by the very mention. i just need someone to depend on for a little while.

they say liver failure is one of the most painful ways to die.

i want somebody to fall in love with my flaws. or just fall in love with my fear of the dark and my fear of thunderstorms or hills or anything. whether it be my annoying paper ripping/peeling habits or my stupid sushi obsession or my clingyness or my naivety or my loneliness or my chewed up fingernails or my overly moisturized lips or my weirdly small hands and feet or my inability to accept failure or my ability to judge quickly or my freakishly small toes or my gushy belly or my split ends or my endless supply of make up or my messy room or my absolutely unorganized life or my unbalanced chemicals or my mood swings or my fake tan or my undeniable clumsiness or my desire for the unreachable or my blonde roots or my awkward stance or my bad posture or the fact that i don't wear socks or my weird love for piercings or my very very very big heart.

i wish there was someone/something i could spill absolutely everything about my life to

without the repercussions

i can honestly say i am so glad you are out of thought out of mind out of sight. there is nothing more pleasing than having you physically and mentally erased from my mind.

motivation:

what is it? can motivation magically appear then disappear in the blink of an eye? is it a person, a picture, words that are permanently etched in your mind? can it be created from someone you love or absolutely despise? is it this weird cycle of highs and lows, where a new motivation for new things comes into play?
or am i just lacking in everything i once had.

i feel as if i'm stuck in a state of mediocrity.

as if everything i produce or create is nothing more than average, and certainly not exceptional.

the only thing this place reminds me of is bonds.
bonds that have:
a) already been destroyed/broken into nothingness or close to it
b) are crumbling before my eyes or starting to break
or c) have remained unflawed only because the flaws we both possess have not shown through yet.
are all flaws interconnected? at one point in time does a flaw contradict how one acts around another. i am worried that the only thing my flaws will do is drive people away farther and farther until all i am left with are my overshadowed good qualities.

they say that people in your life are seasons
and that anything that happens is for a reason

happy belated birthday Dr. Seuss!

it is 11:39
i have had 30 hours of sleep in the past three days

soulja boy is possibly the best looking male i have ever seen

i am so thankful for still being here

i now know what it's like to feel so close to the edge

my stomach feels like knvies are being jabbed into it
my head weighs 100 pounds
i haven't eaten in 3 days

I DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY TO ME.
THERE IS A REASON YOU ARE OUT OF MY LIFE. NOW STAY OUT FOREVER.

boo

Just when I thought I could escape the feeling of destruction,
it came crawling up right behind me.